*power of attraction*

Tuesday, August 17, 2010
.......or just a coincidence?

I have been using education as my password for past one year and suddenly I get a job at the college of education. Just a thought that crossed my mind.

Next password? Tall, dark and handsome *wink*

*Why did you give me the job?"

Monday, August 16, 2010
There were interviews where I walked out 100% sure I got the job (but I didn't), and then there were interviews where I was 50-50% sure I might get the job(and I didn't), but this one??? I was 100% sure I won't get the job(but I did!).

I blanked out on the last half of the questions totally, I stuttered and used "like" a lot (which i have been kicking myself for doing ever since), I slumped and replied to every questions with "Sorry, I don't know how to answer that" or "Sorry, my mind is totally blanking out right now".....And I walked out of the room, got inside the elevator and thought "Boy! that was embarassing, I wish i never get to see them around the university."

But then, Mr. B called and said, "I would like to offer you the job" and I went numb. like wha???

and now, one and a half month into the job, I still wonder why? hehehe sometimes I feel the urge to just ask him....but I don't think it would be appropriate just now. Maybe after 3 or 4 years later.


Wednesday, August 11, 2010
I feel my heart filled with Noor today and it emanates outward bathing everything around me. Every thing looks extra white, extra sweet and extra peaceful. Even my room seem a little brighter. Maybe it's just my mind playing tricks on me or maybe it's something else....something inexplicable, something that the Angels only know....a best kept secret. I, merely a human, can only wonder and smile as I suspect a shadow run past by me from the corner of my eye, scattering fragrance out of this world and blessings one didn't think were possible.

*Never again*

Monday, August 9, 2010
You know how you shout at the TV when something stupid is going on in a Bollywood movie. like Go! stupid, she is waiting for you. or, Say you love her already! well...never again am i going to call those story lines stupid. Because, it's not just bollywood being bollywood. Sometimes, things like that really do happen in real life. *sigh* They really do.

Life is very complicated. Another lesson learned and safely stashed away in my brain.

*jeeyo Islam*

Friday, August 6, 2010
Islam dikhana asaan hota hai, magar usse jeena mushkil.....aur jisne Islam jee liya, dil se, uska dil itna paak hoga jaise kissi ek din ke bachhe ka.

I want to live Islam....not merely show.


Yes.....I have them......Infact, I have more than I probably should. Will they ever come true? Time will tell....wont it?

*Something that I miss*

Thursday, August 5, 2010
I used to write a journal long before I started a blog. You know, as you advance in life and "upgrade", sometimes you miss the old ways. I miss writing in a journal, seeing my thoughts in my own handwriting. But I like the fact that on this blog, I can share my inner most thoughts with friendly strangers on the world wide web. It's one of those things when you are emotionally divided, cut into two pieces. Miss the other way when doing this and miss this if you are doing that.

*can't describe*

Wednesday, August 4, 2010
The feeling of achievement.......the feeling of finishing something that is perfect down to it's minute details. It's something one must feel and enjoy when life presents a chance like this.