* winking cloud *

I promise it was winking!!! Okay - in order to make you understand the whole thing, I should start from the beginning. So there I was, minding my own business....walking as usual to the University Hall to get something to eat when I look up at the sky and there is this cute cloud, blatantly winking at me!!! can you imagine!!!! I was flabbergasted and I think I blushed a little too =)

*Lone Wolf*

"Well, in wolf pack, we are all jerks. But when you see a lone wolf. You see his sweet side."

*Life*

**Jealousy**

Yes, I feel it. I have felt it many times in fact. I recall this one patch of time in my past when chah ke bhi I couldn’t control my jealousy. That’s when an angel taught me a lesson of a lifetime. It said, “Jealousy Pyar dikhata hai” And now that I think of it….its true. Shayad Pyar ka doosra naam hi jealousy hai. We all experience it at one time or another in our lives. Sometimes when someone we love dearly starts showing more interest in someone else, we get this feeling inside. Our heart starts to scream, “Nooooo!” The root cause? Fear of losing him/her. Toh yeh toh achhi baat hoi na? Then why is jealousy a bad word? Well, it all depends on how we handle jealousy; what we do with our emotions; if we let our jealousy make us do things we normally might not do. After all, Amal ka dar-o-madar niyat pe hota hai.

If you are feeling jealous. Keep feeling it. That's a good sign. A sign that, that person means something very special to you. But don't just stop there. Take a step ahead of nature and control your actions. Don't let your jealousy ruin yours or someone else's life. Because it does have that potential, you know. Saab kuch jala kar raakh karne ki potential.

*Extremely*

*Tired*

I am tired....tired of life. How ungrateful of me! I know....but how do you control your emotions?              

*Sometimes*

*Someone is watching over me*

I wake up at the dawn

and feel my pain a little lighter than yesterday

day after day....

*I adore you*

*aaj meein bahot khush hoon*

Kissi ki khushi mein khush hona kitna acha lagta hai na :)

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*Life goes on.....*

To elaborate on that, I would need to consult my heart and unfortunately, He and I are not on talking terms for now....

*Curse or a Blessing?*

I have been debating over that for some time now. Being able to get attached to people/things and places lightening fast, is it a curse or a blessing? Sometimes I feel like a little kid. Not 2 or 3 years old, but a kid one week old. When you let them hold your finger they wrap around their palm so hard that it becomes hard to break your finger away even though you weigh lot more than them. Biologically, they do it because they are out of the womb now and still very afraid of the world. They see a friendly finger and hold onto it as if holding onto their dear life!

But what do you say when a 25 year old does this??? Curse or a Blessing?

*power of attraction*

.......or just a coincidence?

I have been using education as my password for past one year and suddenly I get a job at the college of education. Just a thought that crossed my mind.

Next password? Tall, dark and handsome *wink*

*jeeyo Islam*

Islam dikhana asaan hota hai, magar usse jeena mushkil.....aur jisne Islam jee liya, dil se, uska dil itna paak hoga jaise kissi ek din ke bachhe ka.

I want to live Islam....not merely show.

*dreams*

Yes.....I have them......Infact, I have more than I probably should. Will they ever come true? Time will tell....wont it?

*Something that I miss*

I used to write a journal long before I started a blog. You know, as you advance in life and "upgrade", sometimes you miss the old ways. I miss writing in a journal, seeing my thoughts in my own handwriting. But I like the fact that on this blog, I can share my inner most thoughts with friendly strangers on the world wide web. It's one of those things when you are emotionally divided, cut into two pieces. Miss the other way when doing this and miss this if you are doing that.

Look at the Date!

OMG, The whole month is gone! Time flies, doesn't it? Whether you are having fun or not. Looking back at this month now, I am filled with even more anxiety than I experienced over the course of the month. There was so much to be done that is NOT done yet!!! eeeekkkkksssss. I know, I know....There is always tomorrow. but somethings are lost forever if not done in a timely manner. Despair? yes, i am feeling that along with anxiety, fear, and regret.

You know, sometimes, It's wise to feel regret. Lessons lose their meaning if they are not accompanied by strong emotions. Regret is the strongest of emotions, next to love.

*Sleep*

It's funny how you never appreciate something until after it's gone...**sigh**

*new job*

Feeling an anxiety attack :(

*drowning*

In deadlines