* winking cloud *

I promise it was winking!!! Okay - in order to make you understand the whole thing, I should start from the beginning. So there I was, minding my own business....walking as usual to the University Hall to get something to eat when I look up at the sky and there is this cute cloud, blatantly winking at me!!! can you imagine!!!! I was flabbergasted and I think I blushed a little too =)

*Amazing sight*

While walking towards the university today, A tree was so kind as to shower me with its leaves lovingly! It was like something out of a romance movie. As soon as I stepped under it, these yellow and orange leaves started falling all over me as the wind gushed by. It was an amazing feeling!!!! I am gonna be smiling all day today :) and if you see me smile, you know the reason behind it.

It seems as if the nature is also pitching in for my plan of a happier blog!

*I adore you*

*putting my foot down*

Enough is ENOUGH, dear heart. bahot ho gai tumhari man maani. now It's time for the brain to take over. I think I have spoiled you alot, haven't I? I know tum bahot bhoolay ho. You don't think about the consequences...but the reality is....sometimes, one has to worry about the consequences. I am at the brink of losing a friend. and It's all because of your stupidity. Stupid, stupid heart. Main tumse bahot naraaz hon. and you should learn something from all this, don't just sit there looking glum!

*Roller-coaster ride*

Our emotions are something! you know what I mean, Dear Heart, don't you? Part of it is your fault and part of it is probably mine. :) whoever's fault it may be, Thank you for this roller-coaster ride!

*Why did you give me the job?"

There were interviews where I walked out 100% sure I got the job (but I didn't), and then there were interviews where I was 50-50% sure I might get the job(and I didn't), but this one??? I was 100% sure I won't get the job(but I did!).

I blanked out on the last half of the questions totally, I stuttered and used "like" a lot (which i have been kicking myself for doing ever since), I slumped and replied to every questions with "Sorry, I don't know how to answer that" or "Sorry, my mind is totally blanking out right now".....And I walked out of the room, got inside the elevator and thought "Boy! that was embarassing, I wish i never get to see them around the university."

But then, Mr. B called and said, "I would like to offer you the job" and I went numb. like wha???

and now, one and a half month into the job, I still wonder why? hehehe sometimes I feel the urge to just ask him....but I don't think it would be appropriate just now. Maybe after 3 or 4 years later.

**Noor**

I feel my heart filled with Noor today and it emanates outward bathing everything around me. Every thing looks extra white, extra sweet and extra peaceful. Even my room seem a little brighter. Maybe it's just my mind playing tricks on me or maybe it's something else....something inexplicable, something that the Angels only know....a best kept secret. I, merely a human, can only wonder and smile as I suspect a shadow run past by me from the corner of my eye, scattering fragrance out of this world and blessings one didn't think were possible.

*can't describe*

The feeling of achievement.......the feeling of finishing something that is perfect down to it's minute details. It's something one must feel and enjoy when life presents a chance like this.

*cool things in life*

You know what a cool thing is to see???  Seeing a person's nail being pulled out!

No no. I am not a sadist. It's just that today i saw this procedure at my local hospital where i volunteer! It was very informative. Dr. parikh asked me to tag along with him today and boy was that FUN!

You know what? I enjoy sick people- i mean i enjoy HELPING sick people.hehehe :)



And you know what, there wasn't as much blood as I though there might be. Hmmmmmm

*wobbly head package*

Today while out for an errand, this little boy running around the office caught my eye. And to my surprise, I started looking at him and for the very first time in my life...a very strange natured thought crossed my mind - I wished I had a son/daughter like that to love and hold and play with!!! As soon as I realized what I was just thinking, my eyes got wider. Omg. Hehe I am not even married or engaged and dont plan to tie the knot for a good few more years! Whats happening!

Waise I always had a strong desire to nurture kids, mine or not. But that want was occasional and conveniently convenient for me. I always loved the fact that I could hand the kid over to someone else when it starts to get messy, or leaky ;) or just annoying. Hey - give me a break. Sometimes kids can be preeeety annoying.

But today morning.....for a second there....I wanted it all. All the messiness...the leakiness....the annoyance.....the whole wobbly head package!

Wow! What a morning!