*First time for everything*

I can't believe it. He talked to me very calmly for the very first time! I guess there is a first time for everything. I am soooo Happy. Finally, things are moving towards betterment. Finally things would be as they should be. 

**Join hands with me; let's walk towards a lighter heart**

There was a game we used to play in my Sunday school at the Mosque. It went something like this: You state something you hate about your life (if has to be something you really really hate or regret) and then you add "Allhumdullilah" and then state something that you have instead of that bad thing.

Let's create some positive energy; I will start. 

I HATE living so far away from Ammi jaan, but Allhudullilah, i know she is right there when i need her, only one phone call away.

Your turn!

*Amazing sight*

While walking towards the university today, A tree was so kind as to shower me with its leaves lovingly! It was like something out of a romance movie. As soon as I stepped under it, these yellow and orange leaves started falling all over me as the wind gushed by. It was an amazing feeling!!!! I am gonna be smiling all day today :) and if you see me smile, you know the reason behind it.

It seems as if the nature is also pitching in for my plan of a happier blog!

*Lone Wolf*

"Well, in wolf pack, we are all jerks. But when you see a lone wolf. You see his sweet side."

*Life*

*Hush, little baby, don't say a word*

People come to me when they want a shoulder to cry on. I know exactly how to make someone feel better or at least lessen their burden. I am so wise, they tell me. I am very composed. Yet here I am.....my whole existence flickering like a candle flame in a storm.

**Jealousy**

Yes, I feel it. I have felt it many times in fact. I recall this one patch of time in my past when chah ke bhi I couldn’t control my jealousy. That’s when an angel taught me a lesson of a lifetime. It said, “Jealousy Pyar dikhata hai” And now that I think of it….its true. Shayad Pyar ka doosra naam hi jealousy hai. We all experience it at one time or another in our lives. Sometimes when someone we love dearly starts showing more interest in someone else, we get this feeling inside. Our heart starts to scream, “Nooooo!” The root cause? Fear of losing him/her. Toh yeh toh achhi baat hoi na? Then why is jealousy a bad word? Well, it all depends on how we handle jealousy; what we do with our emotions; if we let our jealousy make us do things we normally might not do. After all, Amal ka dar-o-madar niyat pe hota hai.

If you are feeling jealous. Keep feeling it. That's a good sign. A sign that, that person means something very special to you. But don't just stop there. Take a step ahead of nature and control your actions. Don't let your jealousy ruin yours or someone else's life. Because it does have that potential, you know. Saab kuch jala kar raakh karne ki potential.

*I promise*

Do it right the first time. Second time just wastes time.              

*Life*

"Don't look for straight lines, Maya. Life is never like that."

                                                            -Rasa Devi

*I adore you*

*aaj meein bahot khush hoon*

Kissi ki khushi mein khush hona kitna acha lagta hai na :)

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*Once again*

Life goes on...

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*Love*

Love is a constant passion to give, not a meek persistent hope to receive.

*Be!*

It is never too late to be what you might have been.
-- George Eliot

*Never again*

You know how you shout at the TV when something stupid is going on in a Bollywood movie. like Go! stupid, she is waiting for you. or, Say you love her already! well...never again am i going to call those story lines stupid. Because, it's not just bollywood being bollywood. Sometimes, things like that really do happen in real life. *sigh* They really do.

Life is very complicated. Another lesson learned and safely stashed away in my brain.

*bad choices*

I should have chosen green tea instead of banana milk shake to take soda's place.

*not according to plan*

Wanting to cut down on coke, i started drinking milk with banana everytime i craved coke. Now :( i have gained 4 lbs **runs screaming** 

*forgive me, Heart, for I have sinned*

I feel ashamed today.....my dear heart. Ashamed for saying something about a matter that i had no knowledge of. Ashamed for raising a voice but said the wrong thing. This is one of those rare moments when i feel regret because things that are said can not be taken back. Things that are done can not be undone.

But I thought I was doing good to someone. That's not an excuse. That doesn't make it okay, I know. But I really didnt know I was messing it all up.

How do I forgive myself?

*opposite of love*

"You know, the opposite of Love isn't hate. It is indifference. If you hate me that means you still care."

               -Bree in Desperate Housewives

*what a lovely concept*

 Here's a cool YouTube video